Don't know what to call it...

I was in a free fall,
Letting go was easy,
The deeper I went,
The happier I felt.

Uncertain of the depth,
I tried being ignorant.
Soon I hit the surface
which gave me the distinct scars

Am scared of falls
Don't want to ever close my eyes
Being ignorant wasn't a wise choice
But then what is being wise?

Letting you go!

An illusion so shallow
A truth so difficult
Secret that's hard to swallow
what if i let it go

Truth might hurt, no-one else than me
Secret might trap me into a dark deep hole
Given my luck at this,
why don't i let it go?

You are no ordinary
You are no idiot
No words can describe this
I can't let you go